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Yup.. I went again last night. It was fun though, Lacoyya, Randy, Peter Cottontail and I went, we met up with some friends, watched Invader Zim at Node, Taylor fell asleep in my car, he looks like a cherub with a septum ring when he sleeps! Aw. Anyway, Lucky and Randy left, then Jay and Virgil showed up, most of the guys were playing hackeysac, and I was hugging Virgil whenever I had a chance! He is so cute! After that, I drove around with Virgil and Peter for a while listening to metal, and they are both intelligent and sexy so I had fun, The only problem at Node is that now my arch rival is showing up. Her name is Katie and she is annoying, since we were kids, we've been trying to outdo each other in everything.She's been showing up and sucking face with her boyfriend because she knows I don't have one, But oh well, she has a poodle haircut and frumpy clothes when i see her for the first time in three years, whereas I've got midnight blue hair, a sexy black dress, fishnets and dominatrix boots. And she said she was paying for cosmetology school. Ha! I am going to be learning under Bloody Mary, an Oscar award winning makeup artist, Oh and I'm getting paid for it, lol. So all I need is one finishing touch, The boyfriend, to shame her ass outta my favorite cafe! Yes I know I'm a bitch, but that's because I'm bigger, badder and SEXIER than her and I wont let her invade my turf, Everybody there knows me and is friends with me and they just know her as that bitch putting on a nasty display in the corner. I WILL TAKE THAT BITCH DOWN! lol ttyl everybody!
_____Cherry Deep In My Heart I Feel:  Bitchy And Damn Proud Of It! The Sounds In My Head: Coal Chamber-Loco |
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Yup! As of a couple days ago, I have a car again! I've mostly been at the hot topics and Node.... Friday at node I saw a ton of my friends, Monica, Alyssa, Ian, a couple pagan friends, some people I missed, It was fun. Then lastnight I went with Lucky and Randy. They had no problems with men, but the closest i got to guys was bumming this gay goth boy as clove. Meh, Life Sucks... Oh well, Luck and I are probably going back tonight again so I can sit and read while about 5 guys flirt with her at a time. But at leasty now I have a car. I cant wait to drive around And see the people I missed when I didn't have one. I still would like a boyfriend though. Single life is hell. It seems like everyone is better than you are because someone wants to be with them. What the hell? Why do I feel like that just because of other people? I know someone has to like me and think I'm good enoough to date. I don't know. I need to be skinnier, maybe then I'll be good enough for other people. I'm sick of people thinking I'm cute, but just too fat for them. Or telling me looks dont matter so they'll settle for me when they are far from human themselves... Am I just not good enough for the type of guys I like? Proof money cant buy happiness, I can buy a car but not a guy who likes me. Fuck. well, I'm gonna shower, smoke and get ready for Node again, Later!Deep In My Heart I Feel:  Meh... The Sounds In My Head: Lady Saw- I Got Your Man |
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I feel like hell... I'm so hungover I can barely move, My head hurts and besides that, I'm completely alone. It's Friday night and I'm alone. So mentally and phsically, not an awesome day to be me.... but besides that, I've decided to brainwash all men, because for some odd reason, all they want anymore is skinny blondes with popemout ribs that can be seen miles away. If you know me pesonally you have probably heard this rant too many times, but oh well, until i can find a good intelligent man, that isnt too ashamed to have a bbw on his arm, you'll keep hearing it! It doesn't seem to matter anymore how intelligent a woman is, how funny, how nice, how good in bed, or even how good a cook a woman is anymore. All guys want is some skinny little blonde twig, prefferably with fake tits to stick his dick in. I wish just once a guy would tell me that he wants to be with me before a skinny blonde, or even tell me that I'm truely beautiful, that would knock me dead... I would marry that guy! Why is there not a guy anywhere near milwaukee that is Intelligent, Sweet, Honest and willing to be with a BBW that will cater to his every whim? Skinny girls can treat men like shit and break thier poor lil hearts and it takes a real woman so much time to fix them, god it pisses me off! and to everyone who thinks im saying this out of jealousy, you're insane. I could lose weight, get a tan, bleach my hair and go get my nails done, but I don't want to, I'm proud to be a sexy goth bbw. I'm completely original and confident in myself, but I wish just once a guy would find me as beautiful as I find myself, or even put looks aside completely and see me for the good, caring woman i am. Off the topic of stupid men, I would now like to shift gears and be pissed at my stupid friend, Lacoyya. Don't get me wrong, I love her dearly but she never sees the truth in things, example number 1, She says that a guy friend and I are meant for eachother and that he cares for me more than I think he does, I know this isn't true and he wants nothing more out of me than a Fuck Buddy, ok? example number 2, Lucky also said that an ex of mine sstill wants me because he was "flirting with me" no, he doesn't, I was flirting with him, he was trying to grab her ass, not mine, therefore this girl is an idiot. and example 3 I ask if her new fling had any friends he could hook me up with, and they come up with a 15 year old boy they say is "hot". this is just wrong, I'm not going to jail over getting a date. I'm lonely, not desperate... and yes there is a difference. Lacoyya just sees things that aren't there. Sometimes I actually believe some of these guys actually want me and it drives me to do stupid things like writing poems about them where they can see, or asking them to kiss me. I am a fucking retard. I should never EVER believe any of my friends and what they have to say about my relationships, and I definetly shouldn't be the least bit foreward with any guy, it only leads to rejection, and I fucking hate being rejected. Worst feeling ever... Meh. Damn Lacoyya... I love her. lmao,
Cherry
P.S.Lacoyya also says that I'm Snow White, She's giving everyone she knows a Disney Character that she thinks they resemble....So here I am, lol
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Aug. 28th, 2005 @ 06:57 pm
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Taurus - Your Love Profile
Your positive traits:
You tend to stick with relationships - through the good and the bad.
You are a great listener and tend to give valuable advice.
Cautious and careful, you never jump in recklessly... saving yourself from heartbreak.
Your negative traits:
Money is very important to you, so much so that it's a cause of arguments in relationships.
If your lover isn't loyal or attentive enough to you, your eyes start to wander...
You tend to keep things inside - so your partner may not know when or why you're upset.
Your ideal partner:
Is stable, serious, and ready to be committed to you.
Is successful and able to provide you with the lifestyle you crave.
A true romantic, who is willing to express their desire for your heart.
Your dating style:
Comfortable and traditional. You'd love to have a nice meal at a cozy restaurant.
Your seduction style:
Love comes first for you before you'd even think of intimacy.
Traditional: you're not a cold fish - but you're not into kink either.
Pleasing... you always make sure that your partner is having a good time.
Tips for the future:
Be willing to change your mind. Who you think is the love of your life may be very wrong for you.
Try listening to your mate. While your stubborn streak is hard to break, sometimes your partner knows best.
Ligthen up! The first months of a relationship should be about fun, not intentions.
Best place to meet someone online:
American Singles - peek in on how much potential dates make, and what they do for a living.
Best color to attract mate: Pale blue
Best day for a date: Friday
Get your free love profile at Blogthings.
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Your Stripper Name is: Mystique
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How evil are you?Deep In My Heart I Feel:  Better The Sounds In My Head: Starting Line-Best Of Me |
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Why the fuckis it, I cant even be emotional without some dick trying to pretend they know my thoughts better than I do... And then you have a few people telling you to just forget the pain, ignore it, well goddammit I'm sorry if I'm too "weak" to get over my emotions, or I'm "just a girl", but do people have to honestly make me feel worse? I am a hopeless romantic, I know this, and I loathe it. All I want is a guy who will love me like I love him, A guy who wont beat me or leave me for thier skinny blonde ex... A guy whos not ashamed to go "this is my girlfriend, i love her" and be talking about me. I know I sound whiny and emo and I hate it, I'm really not trying to be a crybaby but I seriously do want love...I have everything else iI want, decent place, nice friends, hell, even good sex.... But I need to fill the void, I want a guy to care for me, someone who will hold me when I feel like this. And I'm so pissed off about being so heartbroken, Everyone makes me feel weaker, more insignificantlike I'm a whiny bitch brooding for no reason, all the guys who made me feel bad about this, I knmow they've felt this way, but they think hiding that is manly, well guess what? It makes you a pussy, If you were a real man you would be secure enough to let me know you felt like this and that I'll be ok too... Now I know why women become man hating raging bull dykes! Men are so fuckin cold you have no choice! I've only dated 2 men in my life that didn't hit me, beat me, or rape me, well those 2 decent guys both left me the second thier exes contacted them, both times these exes were skinny lil girls with light hair, I can't take it, I always end up heartbroken and I'm not even cute enough to find a guy to get over them with... Men either only want me as a friend, as a fuck buddy, or as thier "safe date" or "rebound", I'm the kind of girl guys settle for, not the kind they fall for, and I'm sick of it....I wish just once a guy would fall for me, or even make half the effort I make for men. Why couldn't I just have been born a lesbian? that would make everything easier!!! Well I'm getting tired do I'll go, Later! This bitchy ranty Emo-fest has been brought to you by....
_______CherryDeep In My Heart I Feel:  Shitty The Sounds In My Head: my own thoughts haunting me |
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Another Poem, NWS whatsoever....And Locked!
( Remembering That Night )
And Of Course, The obligitory quizzy section (I made all of them except the Shrek One!
Deep In My Heart I Feel:  Creative The Sounds In My Head: Watching Ever After |
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I figured I would say something other than posting random quizzes, wha can I say? I'm an addict... My hangout friend is going on a cruise today so I'll be bored out of my skull for a good week and i still dont have a car (damn gramma blowing up my last 1)I should have a new 1 by spring! and if thats not enough good news, I'm looking foreward to 2 great conerts! BLS is coming november 7th I believe and Finch, Skindred and HIM are cominng October 23rd! Ville Vallo will be here all the way from Finland!!! I will find him, kidnap him, and brutally rape that sexy man, lol yes I love Ville!!! but anyways, I cant wait till october for more than 1 reason & I am going to maim my deadt keyboard!!!! I guess that's all the updating i have 4 now, ttyl!
CherryDeep In My Heart I Feel: Happy! (for once) The Sounds In My Head: ZIM Techno mix |
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I made that one!Deep In My Heart I Feel: Meh.. The Sounds In My Head: Stella Solei-Kiss kiss |
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Aug. 20th, 2005 @ 05:29 pm
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Deep In My Heart I Feel: Content The Sounds In My Head: None (thats a first) |
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